Just a few days ago, i made an entry about why i LOVE him like i do.. nobody saw it coming that a few days later, we'd be over... now, i'm making this entry about how i STILL love him...
The past few days had been hellish for me. I kept on crying or just staring into space. I was totally out of my element, and i hated every single moment of it. I hated the fact that we failed. That somehow, we gave up. WHY??? i'm so confused.. but at the same time, i felt relieved.. I am now free of the constant updates, the endless text messages and the never-ending sermons when i do something wrong..
oh, but how i miss him!!
Last night, he called me up.. told me how much he misses me, etc.. and before we hung-up, he told me that he and this new girl are "getting there"... wow.. did i miss something? i don't even care anymore..
I must be a crazy, crazy girl.. i was so blinded with the love that i felt for him that i refused to see the obvious. I wasn't the only girl who was keeping him occupied. While his heart was technically with me, it was essentially with somebody else. Talk about being fast-paced...
Now, why do i STILL love him? Actually, this part I don't really understand yet..
And it's killing me..
i miss him.. i see him almost everywhere.. i keep on hearing his voice... i know, i know.. this is definitely normal after an unexpected break-up.. but.. i just want to get it over with.. i don't want to wallow in my stupid and bitter misery when i know a few months from now i'd be looking back at today and realize how stupid i was..
argh...
i really, really miss him!!!
la na ko babykoy.. :(
i miss my koplogs..
call me selfish, but i don't want any other girl holding his hands, kissing him, making room in his heart.. :( i am selfish when it comes to oj.. i used to call him MINE. he used to call me HIS. and now, somebody's GETTING THERE.. to calling him "mine" for her own sake... am i ready for that? no, not yet.. soon, it'd be me loving and giving my heart to somebody else.. the worst part though, is that OJ wouldn't mind.. he will never go through the same hurtful phase that i'm going through right now..
i love him.. i love him JUST BECAUSE..
and i miss him..
but then again.. do i want him back? (just like what our good friend asked me earlier..) and God, i'm just not so sure anymore.. see, i'm really weirding myself and everybody else, for that matter..
-sigh-
i miss and love him..
Sunday, March 18, 2007
recovered entry one
what's the best part of having an OJ in your life?
well, i have lots of answers for that..
YOU'LL HAVE SOMEBODY WHO'LL:
*wipe your tears and sweat off your face.
*hold your hand when you're asleep in his car in the middle of the day and traffic.
*give you stuffs outta nowhere.
*sing you stupid and cheesy songs but make you appreciate it somehow..
*hug you after a long and tiring day..
*drive you to and from school.. hihi.
*make you a very awesome refrigerator cake. yum!
*make you laugh even when you don't want to smile..
*make things better just by holding your hand and saying he loves you..
*play one-on-one basketball with you and actually let you win! haha
*never grow tired of explaining a basketball game.. hehe..
*appreciate all the things you do, no matter how small and CORNY they might be..
*make you feel as if you're the luckiest girl alive, EVERY SINGLE DAY..
*hold your face and just look into your eyes.. and that melts your heart..
*flirt around a lot.. WITH YOU! so you don't have to go worrying who he's flirting with. hehe. jk
*sing karaoke with you, Ü
*give you jerseys!! Ü
*run with you under the rain.. aww.. cheesy.. but i love it every time. Ü
*spend hours waiting for you to choose what movie to watch.
*watch chick flicks with you and say: "awww" when it's necessary.. haha..
*pray with you,, pray FOR you,.. for the two of you..
*love your family just like you do.
*stay with you even after you tell him to leave..
*be an angel...
*look for you after a ball game.. Ü
*kiss you in the forehead in front of everybody..
*respect and love you for who and what you are, flaws and all..
*make you believe in fairy tales..
*make you believe in true love..
*make you want to grow old with him...
Ü
oh, and somebody who'll make you as cheesy as i am right now! haha..
i love you, dzay! Ü
well, i have lots of answers for that..
YOU'LL HAVE SOMEBODY WHO'LL:
*wipe your tears and sweat off your face.
*hold your hand when you're asleep in his car in the middle of the day and traffic.
*give you stuffs outta nowhere.
*sing you stupid and cheesy songs but make you appreciate it somehow..
*hug you after a long and tiring day..
*drive you to and from school.. hihi.
*make you a very awesome refrigerator cake. yum!
*make you laugh even when you don't want to smile..
*make things better just by holding your hand and saying he loves you..
*play one-on-one basketball with you and actually let you win! haha
*never grow tired of explaining a basketball game.. hehe..
*appreciate all the things you do, no matter how small and CORNY they might be..
*make you feel as if you're the luckiest girl alive, EVERY SINGLE DAY..
*hold your face and just look into your eyes.. and that melts your heart..
*flirt around a lot.. WITH YOU! so you don't have to go worrying who he's flirting with. hehe. jk
*sing karaoke with you, Ü
*give you jerseys!! Ü
*run with you under the rain.. aww.. cheesy.. but i love it every time. Ü
*spend hours waiting for you to choose what movie to watch.
*watch chick flicks with you and say: "awww" when it's necessary.. haha..
*pray with you,, pray FOR you,.. for the two of you..
*love your family just like you do.
*stay with you even after you tell him to leave..
*be an angel...
*look for you after a ball game.. Ü
*kiss you in the forehead in front of everybody..
*respect and love you for who and what you are, flaws and all..
*make you believe in fairy tales..
*make you believe in true love..
*make you want to grow old with him...
Ü
oh, and somebody who'll make you as cheesy as i am right now! haha..
i love you, dzay! Ü
For the Love of LOVE..
>This is en entry that I forgot to publish.. hehe.. wrote it last feb. 16 pa, hence, the title.. Ü<
It's frustrating how love can really get to our heads. I mean, no matter how strong a person could seem to be, once love hits that person, it really hits him. Hard. Straight up in the face. And sometimes, the stronger ones are the ones who get caught by surprise.
Lately, I, myself am consumed up by LOVE. Not because it's the LOVE month or anything, but it's because, hey, I'm Abby.. And ask the people closest to me, they'll know that I AM ALWAYS CONSUMED BY LOVE. Anyway...
I try my best to not wallow in love all the time since there are other stuffs, as well. More important stuffs to spend my time on. I guess, people are just pressuring me with the whole boyfriend thing.
Although it is widely known, especially to my friends, that I can never actually survive without my constant crushes, it's important to remember that they are just that---crushes. I don't intend to go and commit further and deeper. I'm really still enjoying my life, as if it isn't hard enough without a boyfriend.
I don't know, call me a coward, i wouldn't care. Some might even say that I'm just trying to cover up the fact that nobody's really interested in me (haha, believe what you want..Ü). But I have my own personal reasons and i rather keep them to myself. I just don't mind being single. I guess, I'm still praying and waiting for that one guy.. I always refer to him as: "somebody i could be crazy with every single day (despite all the fights and what-not.)" Ü
I believe he'll come. i strongly believe that. Ü I guess I just don't want to spend and waste my time on going out with all those different guys and getting my heart broken, I mean, It's just pointless as it is. I love to love. I have lots of love to give and share. I'm just not up for the whole trial-and-error thing. I'm just not that good with heartbreaks, so i play safe. Yes, I do PLAY SAFE. and it's way better than always putting your heart on the line.
Although majority of the people tell me that to be in love with somebody is the most wonderful thing in the world, i still don't see myself in that scenario. NOT YET. Someday, when the right crazy/beautiful guy comes. But in the meantime, I'm just making the best out of everything that life throws at me, and one of those things is BEING SINGLE. Ü
It's frustrating how love can really get to our heads. I mean, no matter how strong a person could seem to be, once love hits that person, it really hits him. Hard. Straight up in the face. And sometimes, the stronger ones are the ones who get caught by surprise.
Lately, I, myself am consumed up by LOVE. Not because it's the LOVE month or anything, but it's because, hey, I'm Abby.. And ask the people closest to me, they'll know that I AM ALWAYS CONSUMED BY LOVE. Anyway...
I try my best to not wallow in love all the time since there are other stuffs, as well. More important stuffs to spend my time on. I guess, people are just pressuring me with the whole boyfriend thing.
Although it is widely known, especially to my friends, that I can never actually survive without my constant crushes, it's important to remember that they are just that---crushes. I don't intend to go and commit further and deeper. I'm really still enjoying my life, as if it isn't hard enough without a boyfriend.
I don't know, call me a coward, i wouldn't care. Some might even say that I'm just trying to cover up the fact that nobody's really interested in me (haha, believe what you want..Ü). But I have my own personal reasons and i rather keep them to myself. I just don't mind being single. I guess, I'm still praying and waiting for that one guy.. I always refer to him as: "somebody i could be crazy with every single day (despite all the fights and what-not.)" Ü
I believe he'll come. i strongly believe that. Ü I guess I just don't want to spend and waste my time on going out with all those different guys and getting my heart broken, I mean, It's just pointless as it is. I love to love. I have lots of love to give and share. I'm just not up for the whole trial-and-error thing. I'm just not that good with heartbreaks, so i play safe. Yes, I do PLAY SAFE. and it's way better than always putting your heart on the line.
Although majority of the people tell me that to be in love with somebody is the most wonderful thing in the world, i still don't see myself in that scenario. NOT YET. Someday, when the right crazy/beautiful guy comes. But in the meantime, I'm just making the best out of everything that life throws at me, and one of those things is BEING SINGLE. Ü
BLAG!
It's been a long while since I last wrote in my blog.. haha.. so, here i am again, about to type away with my nonsensical ideas, as I always do.. DEAL WITH IT, people.. Ü
Well, a lot has been happening over the past few, what, months? Finals week na, so basically, I'm all heads up with my friggin' books.. another week of sleepless nights, and it's freaking me out.. hay, got to deal with it, unfortunately.. this comes with my course, so.. yeah.. i practically don't have the right to complain..
It amazes me how i manage to get my ass off to bed each and every morning just to get to school. I move slow then I curse the traffic when I'm late. haha, the irony of things. It's like I just do things out on a daily routine and I'm not exactly happy with it. Sure, new things do happen every day, small miracles are always there, but still.. i feel empty.. i still feel as if these daily miracles have become a routine, as well...
I'm not really complaining that much, i mean, i'm blessed. i truly am, and i've never been more thankful.. i just wouldn't mind doing something i want for a change.
Lately, I've been feeling locked up. I'm not exactly sure from what but i'm certainly not free. and it sucks, it sucks BIG time. I want to do things but I feel limited, something's holding me back. I want to say a lot of things, express a lot of emotions. But somehow, this strong, invisible force is keeping a steady hold of me. And the worse part of it is, I'm letting it control me. Is it fear? i'm not sure. Maybe. Is it love? Could be. God? I just don't have a clue. I'm just clueless, hopeless.. and it still sucks.
I have always pitied those people living their lives for somebody else. But lately, i feel as if i'm doing the exact same thing. HELP.
Well, a lot has been happening over the past few, what, months? Finals week na, so basically, I'm all heads up with my friggin' books.. another week of sleepless nights, and it's freaking me out.. hay, got to deal with it, unfortunately.. this comes with my course, so.. yeah.. i practically don't have the right to complain..
It amazes me how i manage to get my ass off to bed each and every morning just to get to school. I move slow then I curse the traffic when I'm late. haha, the irony of things. It's like I just do things out on a daily routine and I'm not exactly happy with it. Sure, new things do happen every day, small miracles are always there, but still.. i feel empty.. i still feel as if these daily miracles have become a routine, as well...
I'm not really complaining that much, i mean, i'm blessed. i truly am, and i've never been more thankful.. i just wouldn't mind doing something i want for a change.
Lately, I've been feeling locked up. I'm not exactly sure from what but i'm certainly not free. and it sucks, it sucks BIG time. I want to do things but I feel limited, something's holding me back. I want to say a lot of things, express a lot of emotions. But somehow, this strong, invisible force is keeping a steady hold of me. And the worse part of it is, I'm letting it control me. Is it fear? i'm not sure. Maybe. Is it love? Could be. God? I just don't have a clue. I'm just clueless, hopeless.. and it still sucks.
I have always pitied those people living their lives for somebody else. But lately, i feel as if i'm doing the exact same thing. HELP.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
I LOST MY PHONE...
Yup, i lost it.. today... it was actually my first ever trip to 168 Mall, i went with my mom, my aunt and my grandparents... I bought quite a lot, including this sling bag.. i didn't bring any bag, actually. What i bought was this big duffel bag(to put all the stuffs my mom and i bought) and my handphone, mp3 and money (the mp3 was around my neck and both my money and handphone were in this wallet-like handphone case..) So, there I was going through the hustles and bustles of the said mall..
when it was time to go home, we went outside to find that there was a drizzle.. our car was parked somewhere "there" (clueless.. hehe..) so we had to ride a jeepney again to go there.. since it rained, there were no available jeepneys, all were full so we decided to walk farther until we find a jeepney that we could all ride into.. if you've been to Divisoria, I'm sure you'd know that that place is friggin' crowded all the time and pickpockets are just THERE. I, however, being the ignorant that I am, forgot about the pickpockets roaming nearby so I was carefree, walking and holding BOTH bags in front of me... There was MUD everywhere so I was a bit annoyed, plus the fact that the smell was really, really foul and that the people were just basically SWARMING... anyway, i have learned that thriftiness and practicality needs some sacrifices too.. so, there i was, walking and not complaining.. (i found that part hard, though..)
Anyway, clueless and carefree that i was, i suddenly felt the strap of my sling bag SLIP down my front.. and i quickly turned and looked for the person who took it, call it instinct.. My hand automatically went to search for the sling bag that was seconds ago still hanging there, but of course, it was long gone..
Ok, so i was a victim.. i couldn't do anything about it anymore, right? What's done is done.. Calling the number would be foolish, and looking for the person who did it? well, palin stupidity... So, what i did was, i endured the endless ramblings of the people who were with me, i just listened but my mind was a total blank for a few minutes.. i wanted to cry... but then again, for what? I wanted to scream, but to whom? there's no one left to point fingers at but myself.. i mean, how ignorant and careless can i get, right? So now i suffer the consequences of my actions.. -sigh-
The contents of the bag: handphone, money(good thing it was only around php150 plus some of 'em coins, plus some of these small stuffs that i just bought.. :( )
I don't want to wallow in misery... i refuse to do so.. I'll just have to continue living my life... WITHOUT a friggin phone.. i'll survive.. hehe..
the numbers, though.. my contacts.. waaah.. guys, please do send me your contact numbers.. i'll get a new phone soon, hopefully, so just hit me back with 'em numbers..
stay safe.. and have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, guys..
God bless..
take care of your stuffs.. don't leave 'em unattended.. don't be stupid like
me.. lol.
ciao.
when it was time to go home, we went outside to find that there was a drizzle.. our car was parked somewhere "there" (clueless.. hehe..) so we had to ride a jeepney again to go there.. since it rained, there were no available jeepneys, all were full so we decided to walk farther until we find a jeepney that we could all ride into.. if you've been to Divisoria, I'm sure you'd know that that place is friggin' crowded all the time and pickpockets are just THERE. I, however, being the ignorant that I am, forgot about the pickpockets roaming nearby so I was carefree, walking and holding BOTH bags in front of me... There was MUD everywhere so I was a bit annoyed, plus the fact that the smell was really, really foul and that the people were just basically SWARMING... anyway, i have learned that thriftiness and practicality needs some sacrifices too.. so, there i was, walking and not complaining.. (i found that part hard, though..)
Anyway, clueless and carefree that i was, i suddenly felt the strap of my sling bag SLIP down my front.. and i quickly turned and looked for the person who took it, call it instinct.. My hand automatically went to search for the sling bag that was seconds ago still hanging there, but of course, it was long gone..
Ok, so i was a victim.. i couldn't do anything about it anymore, right? What's done is done.. Calling the number would be foolish, and looking for the person who did it? well, palin stupidity... So, what i did was, i endured the endless ramblings of the people who were with me, i just listened but my mind was a total blank for a few minutes.. i wanted to cry... but then again, for what? I wanted to scream, but to whom? there's no one left to point fingers at but myself.. i mean, how ignorant and careless can i get, right? So now i suffer the consequences of my actions.. -sigh-
The contents of the bag: handphone, money(good thing it was only around php150 plus some of 'em coins, plus some of these small stuffs that i just bought.. :( )
I don't want to wallow in misery... i refuse to do so.. I'll just have to continue living my life... WITHOUT a friggin phone.. i'll survive.. hehe..
the numbers, though.. my contacts.. waaah.. guys, please do send me your contact numbers.. i'll get a new phone soon, hopefully, so just hit me back with 'em numbers..
stay safe.. and have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, guys..
God bless..
take care of your stuffs.. don't leave 'em unattended.. don't be stupid like
me.. lol.
ciao.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Southville People...
Waaaah... i really miss you, guys...
as of this moment, I'm really really missing my Southville friends... It has been almost a month (or has it been longer than a month already?) since i last saw you, guys, and actually spent time with you! Crazy, i tell you.. I have lots of kwentos for you guys and i'm sure you have the same numerous stories to tell...
i miss all of my friends!!! (you see, i tried typing each one of their names.. but unfortunately, it's gonna take me a couple of hours before i actually finish.. plus i might forget someone so, i rather not put names here.. hehe..)
i miss hanging out with you, guys.. i'm sure you know who you are.. i miss talking to you and laughing away with some stupid and crazy ideas.. i miss taking endless pictures with you and i miss eating with you and having them fieldtrips.. i miss knowing that you, guys, are just there...
i really feel so sad knowing that it's just not the same anymore... we barely see and talk to each other and it's not a happy thought... though we've said too many times that it will still be the same, nothing would change, we'd still be the same way we always were... i know somehow that it's not..and i'm sure, you guys know and feel the same way..
it sucks, having to move and leaving you, guys behind.. but it was something i had to do... something i had to live with..
every night i pray.. i pray for you and for me.. hehe.. i pray that somehow, no matter how different our situation might be, somehow, we'll still come out on top..
it's really different, waking up each single day, knowing that when i get to school, it won't be YOUR faces that i will be seeing, nor your voices and laughter that i will be hearing.. i miss the endless teasings, no matter how "foul" they might get.. ahahaha..
i hate not having you, guys, laugh beside me when we're being the mean people that we are.. haha..
hay... it's really weird living without you, guys...
Lots of things are happening everyday.. and sometimes, after a long and tiring day, i just want to be with you, guys. . coz somehow, you always make things better for me..
i remember, when i used to be sad, whenever my tears used to fall, you were all always there for me.. but lately, my tears seem to fall because of you, guys..
i really wish i could turn back time.. i would have done things differently, that i know...
but let me get this straight, i never regret anything.. i don't even regret moving.. it's just that.. i dunno.. if given the chance, i'm sure i would have done something better.. because no matter how good things might be going for me now... God knows how better things are with you, guys..
waaah, i'm getting all dramatic again.. haha.. i know ryu will hate me at this moment for being the drama queen that i am, really.. he's such a supportive bestfriend.. haha, kidding.... haha..
anyway..
i wish you all an advanced holiday greeting.. i just miss you all so bad! and when i mean ALL, i really do mean A-L-L.... hehe..
May God bless each one of us, give us what we duly deserve..
i love you, guys... hope to see y'all again.. SOON!!!!!
CIAO. Ü
as of this moment, I'm really really missing my Southville friends... It has been almost a month (or has it been longer than a month already?) since i last saw you, guys, and actually spent time with you! Crazy, i tell you.. I have lots of kwentos for you guys and i'm sure you have the same numerous stories to tell...
i miss all of my friends!!! (you see, i tried typing each one of their names.. but unfortunately, it's gonna take me a couple of hours before i actually finish.. plus i might forget someone so, i rather not put names here.. hehe..)
i miss hanging out with you, guys.. i'm sure you know who you are.. i miss talking to you and laughing away with some stupid and crazy ideas.. i miss taking endless pictures with you and i miss eating with you and having them fieldtrips.. i miss knowing that you, guys, are just there...
i really feel so sad knowing that it's just not the same anymore... we barely see and talk to each other and it's not a happy thought... though we've said too many times that it will still be the same, nothing would change, we'd still be the same way we always were... i know somehow that it's not..and i'm sure, you guys know and feel the same way..
it sucks, having to move and leaving you, guys behind.. but it was something i had to do... something i had to live with..
every night i pray.. i pray for you and for me.. hehe.. i pray that somehow, no matter how different our situation might be, somehow, we'll still come out on top..
it's really different, waking up each single day, knowing that when i get to school, it won't be YOUR faces that i will be seeing, nor your voices and laughter that i will be hearing.. i miss the endless teasings, no matter how "foul" they might get.. ahahaha..
i hate not having you, guys, laugh beside me when we're being the mean people that we are.. haha..
hay... it's really weird living without you, guys...
Lots of things are happening everyday.. and sometimes, after a long and tiring day, i just want to be with you, guys. . coz somehow, you always make things better for me..
i remember, when i used to be sad, whenever my tears used to fall, you were all always there for me.. but lately, my tears seem to fall because of you, guys..
i really wish i could turn back time.. i would have done things differently, that i know...
but let me get this straight, i never regret anything.. i don't even regret moving.. it's just that.. i dunno.. if given the chance, i'm sure i would have done something better.. because no matter how good things might be going for me now... God knows how better things are with you, guys..
waaah, i'm getting all dramatic again.. haha.. i know ryu will hate me at this moment for being the drama queen that i am, really.. he's such a supportive bestfriend.. haha, kidding.... haha..
anyway..
i wish you all an advanced holiday greeting.. i just miss you all so bad! and when i mean ALL, i really do mean A-L-L.... hehe..
May God bless each one of us, give us what we duly deserve..
i love you, guys... hope to see y'all again.. SOON!!!!!
CIAO. Ü
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
boring...
I'm here somewhere in Ocampo and I don't really like the feeling of surfing the net in a public caf.. hehe.. labo.. anyway... i was browsing the mulitply some moments ago and watdapaq... i shouldn't have.. i saw "his" photos at a friend's page and shux.. he looked so beautiful, as always... he looked so... happy.. and i guess that's what hurts me the most... seeing him happy in the arms (literally!) of somebody else... awww... what is up with me? 2 days ago, i said to myself and to everybody else that I'm letting go... and I already did but of course, the pain of seeing him and the girl together, it's just too much to take.. the pain is definitely unbearbable... :(
i'm actually close to tears right at this moment, and i hate it.. i hate being this vulnerable for a guy that doesn't even give importance to my existence... but don't get me wrong... i love the fact that they're together, even if I'm not the girl with him... he's happy, she's happy... and I'm ok with that already... :(
watdapaq!!!! :(
i'm actually close to tears right at this moment, and i hate it.. i hate being this vulnerable for a guy that doesn't even give importance to my existence... but don't get me wrong... i love the fact that they're together, even if I'm not the girl with him... he's happy, she's happy... and I'm ok with that already... :(
watdapaq!!!! :(
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
for the SISC people :)
Farewell to thee (the drama queen strikes again!)
THIS IS GONNA BE A LOOOONG ENTRY. BE WARNED.
I have always been fond of people. I could really say that I am by far one of the friendliest people you could ever meet. Hell, yeah!
Stepping into college, I was really scared, pissed and bitter. SCARED: I had no friends with me, I didn’t know ANYBODY in Southville.. PISSED: I never wanted to go to Southville to start with. BITTER: I didn’t get to take my dream course in my dream school and I just got out from a good relationship. So, yeah, I started my college life far from HAPPY. Good thing my like for people was still there. I decided to just deal with what I have since I’m left with no choice. So, as the days passed, little did I realize that I’m friends with my whole block already. It will also come as a great surprise when I never found myself missing my high school life. There came a point wherein my highschool friends hated me for not missing them.
Second semester came and I’m still in Southville. Sections were shuffled so that meant, new block, new friends. Again, I gained new relationships with lotsa strangers and the bond with all of them just kept on going stronger as the 2nd year came close. Little did we all know, it was time for us to be shuffled again. And so for my last sem in Southville, I was amongst a sea of strangers, and yet, beautiful strangers they were.
I will be mushy and crappy because I know that there’s not much more that I can do. As to why I’m transferring, kinda long story, so.. bottom line: I’m not in Southville anymore. Feel free to ask, though.
As I move on and continue my studies in Perpetual, I will forever remember and treasure each of the friends I gained in Southville. I had close ties not only with the students but with most of my professors, as well. I’m sure, if it weren’t for them… I’M TOAST. BIG TIME.
So, to express my gratitude… here’s a list of the people that have made my life in Southville a better and happier phase.
*LINI azarcon – she might have the biggest butt in the whole wide world but she also has the biggest heart and patience to remind me stuffs that I never really remember to do anymore. She is one of the closest friends I have and I’m so blessed. I love her.
*MIA lustado – besh. What more can I say? She was there to listen NO MATTER WHAT. She was there to support NO MATTER WHAT. She was always there to tease NO MATTER WHAT. Haha. But I still love her for all that she does to me. She makes me feel so loved most of the time. It wouldn’t be the same without her.
*FRANCE gochangco – this girl, she was the one who would always, always understand me. No words need to be spoken, she always know the right words to say and the right hugs to give. A shoulder that was always ready to catch my falling tears. I’ll miss my bestfriend.
*JAM abrenica – one of the reasons that I strive hard to do my best. One of the people that I do not want to disappoint. She has helped me in ways that I could never imagine. Just a simple hug from her makes me want to cry my heart out. She was there when I was really heartbroken and when I was sick, she was there to give me comfort. I’ll never forget all the little things, Jam. you’ll forever be my baby.
*VAL divinagracia – truly the sweetest and nicest girl I’ve ever met. She’s just too soft-spoken and I can’t bear to see her hurt. She has helped me a lot and I owe her too much. She was the one who laughed at all my corny jokes, and was one who laughed at my dispense. Haha. She’s one of my laughing machines. I love her for all that she is.
*DEZZA gapuzan – my original laughing machine. we kinda hit it off right away (our friendship, I mean!) we shared a lot in common (personality-wise) and it will always be a wonder for me how I got to understand her very twisted but amazing personality. I’ll definitely, DEFINITELY miss d.m.
*MAIX cruz – one of my first friends in southville, yes! she never failed to make me laugh. Her crazy antics and bubbly aura just gets to me. She’s this amazing person that reminded me that life is indeed beautiful. She may not know it but I love her and I’m thankful she came into my life.
*KATHY concepcion – she never left me especially when I was on my down times. She was always there to check if I’m alright and she’s indeed a true friend. Having her listen to my stories and keeping it t herself, already means a lot to me. She’s someone I could talk to about anything and we’ll just laugh it all off in the end. Love this girl.
*EM malazarte – jeez. Can’t find the right descriptions. she has been one of the ate’s that I never had, though I have never really told her that. She was just there. Responsible, sweet, caring. She just lets you know that everything will be alright and she’s just strong. Too strong that she can be strong for me, as well. Words aren’t enough to tell em how grateful I am to have her in my life.
*DES galang – truly one of the best. She taught me a lot about love, life, friendship, family, trust and being independent and strong. Somehow, the friendship we have is something that I could really be proud of. Her endless love and kindness to me are just a few of the things that make her so amazing. miss you, ne!
*CHIJAY nasis – she might not know this but I love her. Though I failed miserably in showing her and being a true friend to her, I just do. I love her. And I want her to know that I’m just here for her NO MATTER WHAT. She is the perfect epitome of a damsel in distress. But in her own little ways, she’s the true friend that will definitely pull you out of the roughest times. Crazy. Beautiful.
*CHIKE sobrevinias – she’s one of the treasured girls in my life. Being with her takes away all the sadness that life might bring. She says the right words, and she really makes you feel that everything will be ok with just a touch and a hug from her. She can heal my heart with just a few simple yet heart-warming words. I’ll miss our little daily conversations, that’s for sure.
*CHRISTINE gozon – I’ll forever be thankful for the trust that she gave me. She was always there to ask for my advice and I am really glad to be of help. She makes me feel like a badly needed friend and that makes me happier. Her constant company is enough security that the world isn’t falling apart that badly.
*JEN san pedro – I never thought that we’d ever get close and when we did, imagine my surprise. She always listened to my super boring stories and she also shared her own. I’m thankful that she did share because through our daily conversations, I got to know more about life and about how things really work. Thank you Jen for all the wonderful insights. I’ll miss you badly!
*ARMY anchores – the small but terrible angel. J I loved her from day one and that still hasn’t change, It never will. One of the most responsible people I’ve ever met and one of the smartest rin! She just never fails to make my heart smile. if not for her, our sweet victory can never be attained. thank God!
*ROCEL arce – she took care of me so badly I feel as if I owe her my life. she was too nice and too good to be true. She is a true blue friend and she’s just always willing to help. She was interested in my past and she helped me move on. I’ll always be thankful for this girl. I love her.
*AGA roxas – to be this girl’s friend is AMAZING.she is such a lot of sweet and good things. she was also like a sister to me! She constantly nagged me to do the right thing and if not for her, I wouldn’t make it to the 2nd semester. Thank you so much. I love you dear, till the ends of the earth, and you know it! Thank you for tolerating me and my attitude problem.
*J.B. bernardino – though most of our times together are spent on endless teasing and bullying, JB and I had our own share of personal and serious talks. I’m proud to say that JB is a the perfect gentleman. It might not show that much but once he loves, he really loves. And I’m proud of him for that. Kipititup jambreen! Hehe. Thanks for everything.
*MIKO palcone – my personal composer. he was the reason behind all my songs and my popularity. Haha. Nah,. Miko is a really good friend. And in his own little ways, he looked out for me naman kahit papano. and I’ll never forget that.
*JOHN ho – my kuya john ho. His advices. His harsh words that snap me back to reality. His warm heart that helped me heal my heart too many times. His kind spirit that just seems to help everybody cope with life and its complexities. His presence that assures me that everything will fall into place. In time. Thank you, kuya Ho. Someday I’ll be needing your wisdom again.
*BENNY atendido – my ultimate kuya. he was always there to look after me, since the very beginning. He never failed to be the kuya that he always was. He comforted me when I was so down, made me laugh when I was crying my heart out, accompanied me when I was alone, held my hand when I needed it, made everything better when I thought everything was falling apart. Kuya and baby forever.
*B.M. navarro – one of my trusted guy friends. He was there to cheer me up when I was having my heart broken. He never failed in making me smile or laugh. He was another kuya figure and he lived up to that role. We had our own bad times but still, we somehow managed to keep the friendship. And even if he might not need me anymore, B.M., know that I’m just here. Aright?
*ROD vasquez – the one who endured my stupid thoughts on Shao. He never failed to make me smile. he was always advising me to prevent my heart from breaking. And I really appreciated it. Having him as a friend is enough blessing. thanks, apo!
*RYU uchida – one of the few people that I never knew I could actually grow close with. I never imagined the two of us laughing at the caf. And yet, we did. I never knew he could be serious in his own little ways and I’m thankful for all that he is. He was very supportive and contradictive all at the same time, and yet, he’s one of the best. words could not suffice… so, THANK YOU.
*TATS nuyda – whoever thought that he could make me cry?! Hehe. I’ll forever treasure the friendship I gained with tats. He truly is one of the most loved cafboys. he helped me a lot, though he wasn’t aware of it. thanks, tats. See you when we watch happy feet!
*JED bellon – sir jed! Thanks for being one helluva friend. though we’re not really thisclose, we had our share of serious conversations, didn’t we? Hehe. Do take care of yourself and of the deal we made. You’d look out for…. Hehe. Thanks, see you around sir jed!
*MELOY arce - God knows how thankful i am for this guy. he was very, very sewwt and accomodating. I never imagined that we'll actually be close. Though we barely spend time together in school, every time we talk, our conversations keep on getting better and better as we grow closer. i really appreciate all the simple things he has done for me and i love him for that. thanks, men!
*MS. LUCHIE octaviano – though she might not be able to read this, I still hope this gets to her. I wouldn’t have survived my first year without Ms. Luchie. She was the mother figure that I truly love in Southville. She took care of me inside and outside the classroom. She is a great professor, adviser, and a friend. Thank you, Ms. I love you po.
*MS. CIEL nuyda – now ms. Ciel is definitely another mother figure that I have grown to love. she was just there even when I didn’t deserve her there. She just took care of us and practically led us to where we are right now. There are so many things she has done in my life and a simple thank you would help to express how I’m feeling inside. I love you, Ms.!
*SIR EDWARD franco – hehe. I still owe sir ed. He’s gonna kill me now. Hehe. Good thing ala siya friendster! Hehe. I’ll forever be thankful to Sir Ed because if it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t be able to realize my capabilities as a leader. I f not for him constantly barking behind my back, I would never learn the value of responsibility. And If not for his wise words, I wouldn’t be this determined. thank you, sir ed. I just pray that you lessen being a slave-driver. Hehe. Peace po.
*MS. PIA habito – she made me cry. for she was just so nice. thank you, Ms. Pia for being such a big help and for being so understanding and compassionate. thank you for the knowledge you have imparted me and I understand that yes, it was never part of your job to tell everybody that THERE IS NO SANTA CLAUS. Thank you, Ms.
*MS. ALFI, MS. KITE, MS. VIVIAN, DR. REB – thank you so much for the patience you had with me and for talking some sense into me most of the time. Thank you po for being the nicest C.I.’s any nursing student could ask for.
*WAN BEE PEOPLE – forgive me if I fail to make each one of you a separate description.. but know that I will forever treasure each of our time spent together. Thank you, guys, for all the kindness and trust you gave me. The friendship we guys have wil always be here, NO MATTER WHAT. Please know that you can always ask for my help. I’m always willing to help. Thank you and Godbless.
*TWO BEE PEOPLE – God knows how much I love and treasure you, guys. Even for just a very short while, the friendship that we nurtured just keeps on growing and growing and someday, we’ll swim again like it was just yesterday, won’t we? I love you guys. I thank God each and every chance I get for letting me know you, guys, truly one of the best. love you!
*COLLEGIATE MOVER FAMILY – thank you for being so so patient with me. Being a part of your publication had been so much fun. I’ll forever hold in my heart the experience of being a part of you, guys. in return, you’ll forever be a part of me, as well. thank you again, more power!
*SSC-COL FAMILY – hay. Life would definitely be a whole lot different without the meetings and the trainings. I’ll surely miss you, guys. I’ll miss everything about being in the council. Till we meet again.
*SOUTHVILLE FRIENDS – you, guys know who you are. And I thank you for existing in my life and for accepting me for who and what I am. I love you all. Please feel free to contact me anytime!
Hay! Told you it’s long! But anyway, it was worth the time, effort and words.
SEE YOU AROUND GUYS. GOD BLESS US ALL.
Ciao!
-abby-
THIS IS GONNA BE A LOOOONG ENTRY. BE WARNED.
I have always been fond of people. I could really say that I am by far one of the friendliest people you could ever meet. Hell, yeah!
Stepping into college, I was really scared, pissed and bitter. SCARED: I had no friends with me, I didn’t know ANYBODY in Southville.. PISSED: I never wanted to go to Southville to start with. BITTER: I didn’t get to take my dream course in my dream school and I just got out from a good relationship. So, yeah, I started my college life far from HAPPY. Good thing my like for people was still there. I decided to just deal with what I have since I’m left with no choice. So, as the days passed, little did I realize that I’m friends with my whole block already. It will also come as a great surprise when I never found myself missing my high school life. There came a point wherein my highschool friends hated me for not missing them.
Second semester came and I’m still in Southville. Sections were shuffled so that meant, new block, new friends. Again, I gained new relationships with lotsa strangers and the bond with all of them just kept on going stronger as the 2nd year came close. Little did we all know, it was time for us to be shuffled again. And so for my last sem in Southville, I was amongst a sea of strangers, and yet, beautiful strangers they were.
I will be mushy and crappy because I know that there’s not much more that I can do. As to why I’m transferring, kinda long story, so.. bottom line: I’m not in Southville anymore. Feel free to ask, though.
As I move on and continue my studies in Perpetual, I will forever remember and treasure each of the friends I gained in Southville. I had close ties not only with the students but with most of my professors, as well. I’m sure, if it weren’t for them… I’M TOAST. BIG TIME.
So, to express my gratitude… here’s a list of the people that have made my life in Southville a better and happier phase.
*LINI azarcon – she might have the biggest butt in the whole wide world but she also has the biggest heart and patience to remind me stuffs that I never really remember to do anymore. She is one of the closest friends I have and I’m so blessed. I love her.
*MIA lustado – besh. What more can I say? She was there to listen NO MATTER WHAT. She was there to support NO MATTER WHAT. She was always there to tease NO MATTER WHAT. Haha. But I still love her for all that she does to me. She makes me feel so loved most of the time. It wouldn’t be the same without her.
*FRANCE gochangco – this girl, she was the one who would always, always understand me. No words need to be spoken, she always know the right words to say and the right hugs to give. A shoulder that was always ready to catch my falling tears. I’ll miss my bestfriend.
*JAM abrenica – one of the reasons that I strive hard to do my best. One of the people that I do not want to disappoint. She has helped me in ways that I could never imagine. Just a simple hug from her makes me want to cry my heart out. She was there when I was really heartbroken and when I was sick, she was there to give me comfort. I’ll never forget all the little things, Jam. you’ll forever be my baby.
*VAL divinagracia – truly the sweetest and nicest girl I’ve ever met. She’s just too soft-spoken and I can’t bear to see her hurt. She has helped me a lot and I owe her too much. She was the one who laughed at all my corny jokes, and was one who laughed at my dispense. Haha. She’s one of my laughing machines. I love her for all that she is.
*DEZZA gapuzan – my original laughing machine. we kinda hit it off right away (our friendship, I mean!) we shared a lot in common (personality-wise) and it will always be a wonder for me how I got to understand her very twisted but amazing personality. I’ll definitely, DEFINITELY miss d.m.
*MAIX cruz – one of my first friends in southville, yes! she never failed to make me laugh. Her crazy antics and bubbly aura just gets to me. She’s this amazing person that reminded me that life is indeed beautiful. She may not know it but I love her and I’m thankful she came into my life.
*KATHY concepcion – she never left me especially when I was on my down times. She was always there to check if I’m alright and she’s indeed a true friend. Having her listen to my stories and keeping it t herself, already means a lot to me. She’s someone I could talk to about anything and we’ll just laugh it all off in the end. Love this girl.
*EM malazarte – jeez. Can’t find the right descriptions. she has been one of the ate’s that I never had, though I have never really told her that. She was just there. Responsible, sweet, caring. She just lets you know that everything will be alright and she’s just strong. Too strong that she can be strong for me, as well. Words aren’t enough to tell em how grateful I am to have her in my life.
*DES galang – truly one of the best. She taught me a lot about love, life, friendship, family, trust and being independent and strong. Somehow, the friendship we have is something that I could really be proud of. Her endless love and kindness to me are just a few of the things that make her so amazing. miss you, ne!
*CHIJAY nasis – she might not know this but I love her. Though I failed miserably in showing her and being a true friend to her, I just do. I love her. And I want her to know that I’m just here for her NO MATTER WHAT. She is the perfect epitome of a damsel in distress. But in her own little ways, she’s the true friend that will definitely pull you out of the roughest times. Crazy. Beautiful.
*CHIKE sobrevinias – she’s one of the treasured girls in my life. Being with her takes away all the sadness that life might bring. She says the right words, and she really makes you feel that everything will be ok with just a touch and a hug from her. She can heal my heart with just a few simple yet heart-warming words. I’ll miss our little daily conversations, that’s for sure.
*CHRISTINE gozon – I’ll forever be thankful for the trust that she gave me. She was always there to ask for my advice and I am really glad to be of help. She makes me feel like a badly needed friend and that makes me happier. Her constant company is enough security that the world isn’t falling apart that badly.
*JEN san pedro – I never thought that we’d ever get close and when we did, imagine my surprise. She always listened to my super boring stories and she also shared her own. I’m thankful that she did share because through our daily conversations, I got to know more about life and about how things really work. Thank you Jen for all the wonderful insights. I’ll miss you badly!
*ARMY anchores – the small but terrible angel. J I loved her from day one and that still hasn’t change, It never will. One of the most responsible people I’ve ever met and one of the smartest rin! She just never fails to make my heart smile. if not for her, our sweet victory can never be attained. thank God!
*ROCEL arce – she took care of me so badly I feel as if I owe her my life. she was too nice and too good to be true. She is a true blue friend and she’s just always willing to help. She was interested in my past and she helped me move on. I’ll always be thankful for this girl. I love her.
*AGA roxas – to be this girl’s friend is AMAZING.she is such a lot of sweet and good things. she was also like a sister to me! She constantly nagged me to do the right thing and if not for her, I wouldn’t make it to the 2nd semester. Thank you so much. I love you dear, till the ends of the earth, and you know it! Thank you for tolerating me and my attitude problem.
*J.B. bernardino – though most of our times together are spent on endless teasing and bullying, JB and I had our own share of personal and serious talks. I’m proud to say that JB is a the perfect gentleman. It might not show that much but once he loves, he really loves. And I’m proud of him for that. Kipititup jambreen! Hehe. Thanks for everything.
*MIKO palcone – my personal composer. he was the reason behind all my songs and my popularity. Haha. Nah,. Miko is a really good friend. And in his own little ways, he looked out for me naman kahit papano. and I’ll never forget that.
*JOHN ho – my kuya john ho. His advices. His harsh words that snap me back to reality. His warm heart that helped me heal my heart too many times. His kind spirit that just seems to help everybody cope with life and its complexities. His presence that assures me that everything will fall into place. In time. Thank you, kuya Ho. Someday I’ll be needing your wisdom again.
*BENNY atendido – my ultimate kuya. he was always there to look after me, since the very beginning. He never failed to be the kuya that he always was. He comforted me when I was so down, made me laugh when I was crying my heart out, accompanied me when I was alone, held my hand when I needed it, made everything better when I thought everything was falling apart. Kuya and baby forever.
*B.M. navarro – one of my trusted guy friends. He was there to cheer me up when I was having my heart broken. He never failed in making me smile or laugh. He was another kuya figure and he lived up to that role. We had our own bad times but still, we somehow managed to keep the friendship. And even if he might not need me anymore, B.M., know that I’m just here. Aright?
*ROD vasquez – the one who endured my stupid thoughts on Shao. He never failed to make me smile. he was always advising me to prevent my heart from breaking. And I really appreciated it. Having him as a friend is enough blessing. thanks, apo!
*RYU uchida – one of the few people that I never knew I could actually grow close with. I never imagined the two of us laughing at the caf. And yet, we did. I never knew he could be serious in his own little ways and I’m thankful for all that he is. He was very supportive and contradictive all at the same time, and yet, he’s one of the best. words could not suffice… so, THANK YOU.
*TATS nuyda – whoever thought that he could make me cry?! Hehe. I’ll forever treasure the friendship I gained with tats. He truly is one of the most loved cafboys. he helped me a lot, though he wasn’t aware of it. thanks, tats. See you when we watch happy feet!
*JED bellon – sir jed! Thanks for being one helluva friend. though we’re not really thisclose, we had our share of serious conversations, didn’t we? Hehe. Do take care of yourself and of the deal we made. You’d look out for…. Hehe. Thanks, see you around sir jed!
*MELOY arce - God knows how thankful i am for this guy. he was very, very sewwt and accomodating. I never imagined that we'll actually be close. Though we barely spend time together in school, every time we talk, our conversations keep on getting better and better as we grow closer. i really appreciate all the simple things he has done for me and i love him for that. thanks, men!
*MS. LUCHIE octaviano – though she might not be able to read this, I still hope this gets to her. I wouldn’t have survived my first year without Ms. Luchie. She was the mother figure that I truly love in Southville. She took care of me inside and outside the classroom. She is a great professor, adviser, and a friend. Thank you, Ms. I love you po.
*MS. CIEL nuyda – now ms. Ciel is definitely another mother figure that I have grown to love. she was just there even when I didn’t deserve her there. She just took care of us and practically led us to where we are right now. There are so many things she has done in my life and a simple thank you would help to express how I’m feeling inside. I love you, Ms.!
*SIR EDWARD franco – hehe. I still owe sir ed. He’s gonna kill me now. Hehe. Good thing ala siya friendster! Hehe. I’ll forever be thankful to Sir Ed because if it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t be able to realize my capabilities as a leader. I f not for him constantly barking behind my back, I would never learn the value of responsibility. And If not for his wise words, I wouldn’t be this determined. thank you, sir ed. I just pray that you lessen being a slave-driver. Hehe. Peace po.
*MS. PIA habito – she made me cry. for she was just so nice. thank you, Ms. Pia for being such a big help and for being so understanding and compassionate. thank you for the knowledge you have imparted me and I understand that yes, it was never part of your job to tell everybody that THERE IS NO SANTA CLAUS. Thank you, Ms.
*MS. ALFI, MS. KITE, MS. VIVIAN, DR. REB – thank you so much for the patience you had with me and for talking some sense into me most of the time. Thank you po for being the nicest C.I.’s any nursing student could ask for.
*WAN BEE PEOPLE – forgive me if I fail to make each one of you a separate description.. but know that I will forever treasure each of our time spent together. Thank you, guys, for all the kindness and trust you gave me. The friendship we guys have wil always be here, NO MATTER WHAT. Please know that you can always ask for my help. I’m always willing to help. Thank you and Godbless.
*TWO BEE PEOPLE – God knows how much I love and treasure you, guys. Even for just a very short while, the friendship that we nurtured just keeps on growing and growing and someday, we’ll swim again like it was just yesterday, won’t we? I love you guys. I thank God each and every chance I get for letting me know you, guys, truly one of the best. love you!
*COLLEGIATE MOVER FAMILY – thank you for being so so patient with me. Being a part of your publication had been so much fun. I’ll forever hold in my heart the experience of being a part of you, guys. in return, you’ll forever be a part of me, as well. thank you again, more power!
*SSC-COL FAMILY – hay. Life would definitely be a whole lot different without the meetings and the trainings. I’ll surely miss you, guys. I’ll miss everything about being in the council. Till we meet again.
*SOUTHVILLE FRIENDS – you, guys know who you are. And I thank you for existing in my life and for accepting me for who and what I am. I love you all. Please feel free to contact me anytime!
Hay! Told you it’s long! But anyway, it was worth the time, effort and words.
SEE YOU AROUND GUYS. GOD BLESS US ALL.
Ciao!
-abby-
Sunday, October 22, 2006
If I have one song... it'd be this..
TO BE WITH YOU-MR. BIG
Hold on, little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up, little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
**when it's through, it's through
fate will twist the both of you
so come on, baby, come on over
let me be the one to show you
***i'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too
waited on a line of greens and blues,
just to be the next TO BE WITH YOU
build up your confidence,
so you can be on top for once
wake up, who cares about
little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down,
you're game of love was all rained out
so come on baby, come on over
let me be the one to hold you
repeat ***
++why be alone.
when we can be together, baby?
you could make my life worthwhile,
and i could make you start to smile...++
repeat **, ***
Friday, October 20, 2006
CIAO: what the word really means...
If there's one thing that i love about parties, it would be the photos taken during the event. hehe. well, of course the food could always be enjoyed but what remains after all are the photos. Just like this one. :)
Anyway, I don't really intend to write about parties... Yesterday, i was chatting (on YM) with my former classmate way back in highschool, Joe. I made him a testimonial days ago and as always, i signed off with "Ciao". So, yesterday, he asked me where i learned the word (Ciao). I've known years ago that "Ciao" is being used by Italians to greet each other or to bid farewell. So, i told him that. And he said that there's a deeper meaning to the word. Clueless, I asked him what the deeper meaning was. I didn't get the answer because i had to go and prepare for another friend's debut. I thought about it the whole night, what it could possibly mean, but of course, the real meaning never really dawned on me. Good thing when I signed in earlier today, Joe was online. So he finally got to tell me what CIAO really meant. Turns out it basically means: "I'm willing to die for you." How he knew it, kinda a long story. hehe.
If you would see, I'm using -Ciao- as my name. And it's not to serve as a greeting or whatever. I have learned to love CIAO for lotsa reasons.
FIRST: I have this unexplainable love for different languages. Ciao came from a foreign country, and I don't really remember when, where and how i learned to say it but i just know that I've been using it for a long time now.
SECOND: I used it as a codename lots of times. But for this particular guy only. His name kinda rhymes with it. so, everytime i want to say his name, i just say CIAO instead. hehe. Although, it's obvious as hell that the code's for him. haha.
THIRD: I just find it cute, how one uses it. "Ciao!" just imagine, with a matching cat-like smile, hehe.
When I found out what it really means, I found it amusing, really. I always use the word to friends, families and that guy. And it doesn't really change, the meaning is still applicable. Of course I'm willing to die for the people i love. hehe.
So anyway, i just thought it would be cool to share the knowledge i gained today from that very good friend of mine. hehe...
Godbless y'all and..
CIAO! :)
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